One Chance

this morning i was awaken by Ace Running up and down through the Apartment saying " Im maxxx trippin"

- I roll over and watch her-

She say's "Shareee im Maxx Trippin . . . My Final! "

I ask " when is your Final "

she replies " 9:30 "

i grab my phone from my side, only to see that it was then 9:35

smh

and i know this final is for either computer programing or Math 3a.

Two classes which she's been studying tremendously for. 

its a shame how sometimes we work soooo hard for a certain something. Give it all of our time and attention, only to turn around and make the slip up of the YEAR :/. And all our efforts are declared null. 

well for her sake, i hope her professor isnt like most.

they dont give a **** what your circumstance is.

They dont care that the reason your so late, is because you were up ALL night for the past 3 weeks studying for HIS/HER test. and just happened to sleep a little longer than planned.

That you've been on time to class every single class meeting prior to this one.

You find this happening else where other than school with your professors.

It happens everyday with, Jobs, RELATIONSHIPS, and FRIENDS. 

Okay

Im Back.

and my 17 units are now 15 units. lol. 

I just couldn't do two night classes in a row. 

my issue right now . . .

trying to find somewhere to live here in SB.

by Friday Though :/

Wish me luck.

trust

Now usually you hear the story about a girl who's father either wasn't there or treated her horribly, resulting in her developing a trust problem. She finds it hard to trust anyone nor get close to anyone. Especially males, for she fears just like her father, they will walk out on her or mistreat her.

I feel as if I have that same problem, in REVERSE.

Its like, me and my daddy have the most open and loving realationship I think is possible w.out moving the realationship into the disrespect catagory.

So I figure this in turn has allowed me to put my trust in everyone w.out really knowing what I'm getting myself into and later, ending up tremendously HURT. But even after whatever maddness they bring into my life, I continue to trust them until they damn near kill my heart off. And then even so, ill still love them.

So is this a problem?

Yes.

I would never say I'd go back and change me and Daddy's realationship to better my judgement when it comes to trust.

But I do wish I had more (ruth-less-ness) running through my veins
Or
That I'd start meeting a better quality of people.

Either way I really would find it hard to change who I am.

That being said,
I have nothing but love for this world and the people in it :)

Peace.

new

i feel myself evolving into a whole new character.

some say "You should never change yourself for anything" . but i feel if we never change ourselves not one bit for all of our lives, we will never grow. we will just be stuck. Stuck on bad habits, even stuck on good ones, and even that becomes boring. you should want to develop new good habits and experience new joys. go on different adventures. not just the same ol ones. 

This is not on that whole "I'm acting brand new" tip. I'm not going to start changing my attitude to " eff the world, I'm just on this earth to please me" its more of, i must never put anyone in priority over myself. i must not do things that make me cry behind closed doors, just to see another face smile. i must not set aside things that i take a liking to, just because it isn't enjoyed by others. 

At the moment i am at total peace w. myself mind body and spirit wise. and i plan on keeping it that way. I must eliminate anything that isn't beautiful nor brings me joy. Bad energy is so powerful that it could kill. 

i gotta live people. I gotta live.

Not really sure which way to go

MAYBE I SHOULD TAKE IT SLOW . . .

but

life is definitely to short for slow-pace living

Vroommm ! peace:)

Sharee discovers the world

Okay so ive been blessed w. a rare opportunity

so im going to take advantage of it.

so i came up w. this idea just now, because i was reflecting on how wonderful it was for me to be able to venture off to Hawaii in June, now in July im going to New York. so i was wondering like why stop there? Why not go somewhere every month? New York was one of the main places i wanted to go . . lol and so was Hawaii. But id also like to Travel to St.Louis, Atlanta, D.C, and Miami( which im already scheduled to go to, next summer w. my dear friend Chris) and then after 13 or 14 destinations within the the USA, i want to travel outside of the country, Brazil being one of the main ones. Then somewhere in Africa. Paris, Milan, Guatemala, Australia . . at least 1 place in each continent minus Antarctica, im cool on all that. ohh and Amsterdam:) just because. 

its always been my dream to travel the world. now i can do it:) . 

Stay posted for NY pics coming within one week.

no weakness

Why the hell am i so weak minded thou.

Like im supposed to be going and getting my new life on track. Like away from my so called comfort zone.

But what's a comfort zone if i find my self being at a dis-comfort every one or two weeks?
i gotta go man, this is getting ridiculous

who am i? Im Sharee Hughes♥

and i refuse to be under the control of someone else mentally. i refuseeee.

how am i to follow, if i was born to lead?

time to lead. follow meee